This past month I have been searching for new ways to be connected to God. More ways to step back from society, to walk away from the flesh and walk more obediently with God. In doing so, I have been listening to more podcasts, reading more books, and seeking out God more. Seeking His presence and His word. As I was listening to a podcast, I was asked this question, “What do I want?” Like, deep in my soul, what am I seeking? I hate tough questions like this, ones that convict me and truly make me STOP and think. I used to be really afraid of questions like this, not wanting to sit with them and learn about myself, to learn more about God. I am growing in this, in God’s timing. And as I sat with this question, this is what I found:
I want to be enough for myself and the people around me. I want to be loved. I want peace and joy. I think that’s the bottom line. I don’t necessarily know the answer to finding what I truly want. But, I do know that I must turn to God, seek Him first. In Him, I will receive what I want. Not from this world, but from Him. From trusting in Him, leaning on Him, spending time in His word, praying, being obedient and resting in His presence. As I was wrestling with the question, I was also flipping through the bible and I came across this verse:
Seek the Lord, all you humble of the land, you who do what he commands. Seek righteousness, seek humility, perhaps you will be sheltered on the day of the Lord’s anger. Zephaniah 2:3
I could live in Romans 8 forever and as I flipped through the bible, I again landed in it. I was looking at life through the spirit, vs. 1-17. And as the question I was asked rolled around in my mind, I was reminded of the battle between the flesh and the Spirit. And that is the bottom line of where we go next. Do I allow my life to be lived by the flesh or by the Spirit? Do I seek what I need from the flesh or from the Spirit?
Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires, but those who live in accordance with the spirit have their minds set on what the spirit desires. Romans 8:5
And from aligning my desires with the Spirits’, from seeking God, living in accordance to the Spirit, that is where I find life, peace, joy, and love. And it all started with Jesus. With Him, we also died to the law, to the desires of the flesh. He freed us from the law, from ourselves. And He gave us new life. He gave us the Holy Spirit so that we can live, so that we can find all that we truly want. And it is in Him where we find what we are looking for.
So, my brothers and sisters, you also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from he dead, in order that we might bear fruit for God. Romans 7:4
The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17
Love and blessings,
Radical Road 