The Unseen

I am back at LAX, still no signs of Justin or Hailey Bieber. But, in other news my new SIL had Hailey Bieber nails for the wedding (S/O to you Lace) and they were flawless. Okay, now for the real post.

I woke up to a whole bunch of reminders, memories, and what used to be. I got to sleep in my old bed with the window open and Kona snoring. It was blissful. I did pilates with my mom before she went to work and stood staring at the coffee cups for two minutes deciding which one I was going to use as my “last cup of coffee in MN for awhile.” I picked out one a parent had made me a few years back and settled in, with nothing packed, and spent a little time with God before I ensured my suitcases were under 50 pounds. Even though I have been in Hawaii for two months working, it feels weird to be leaving to go back there. I have no idea when I will be back to Minnesota. This morning it almost felt like I needed to get my butt in gear to get to CHE on time and not be late for another meeting. Instead, my dad brought me to the airport, I got a PSL from Caribou, and settled in on my flight.

I am having lots of mixed emotions. I loved my time back in MN, every single minute of it. I want more, but I am also just grateful for the people in my life, for the friends I got to see, and the family I got to spend time with. But, for this season, I am meant to be away from them. AND THAT IS HARD. God holds me in His hands though and today, I have been fighting back tears with all that I am missing. But, God. He calls us to more than an ordinary life, one where we live for Him and His kingdom. And as we do, He promises us that we will face trials and troubles. He promises us that we will be persecuted, but He also reminds us that it is all temporary.

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:18

We serve an eternal God. A God of victory, hope, and love. And we are promised that when we choose to follow Him, when we say yes to Jesus, that He is our light in this world. He already conquered it, He overcame it and is victorious. We just need to fix our eyes on Jesus. On His eternal goodness. And as I face sadness and walk through this season, I hang on to all that He is and all that He promises. Don’t get me wrong though, there is also so much joy in this season. The sadness just hits you when you leave all the goodness all over again. But, this morning I enjoyed one more sunrise in MN, one more crisp and cozy morning. And I just sat back and thanked God.

I finished reading my book, “Get Out of Your Head,” by Jennie Allen on the plane to LA (get it and read it because it is so, so good). A BIG part of me wants to throw in the towel and catch the next flight back home. I just love it there so much. But, as I finished reading this morning, Romans 12:2 and Ephesians 2:10 hit me again. In other words, God decided against that…for now.

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:10

And it is there where God meets me again. He is the truth. And for whatever reason He has me thousands of miles from home. And I am reminded again and again of not only His goodness, but His grace. And it is by that alone that I am here, that I am running to my plane to head back to Hawaii, where I live. Who knows what is in this season, but I’m going to trust in God. I’m going to walk into the freedom He has for me again today and walk, not by sight, but by faith.

Love and blessings,