God is true. God is faithful.

Let those words sink in, let them radiate through your soul. No matter what you are walking through, I promise you that God does not change. He is the same God, yesterday, today, and always. I have a little testimonial blog post here for you to back up what I believe to be true about God.

I have this 52 week prayer book and to put into perspective how imperfect I am, I think it has taken me about 107ish (probably more but I like the number 7) weeks to get through it. It’s a very simple book, but if you didn’t know this about me, I am a little bit of a busy body and all over the place. Anyways, today, I made it to the end of the prayer journal. And fitting that it ended in Revelation.

I saw heaven standing open and there before me was a white horse, whose rider is called Faithful and True. With justice he judges and wages war. His eyes are like blazing fire, and on his head are many crowns. He has a name written on him that no one knows but he himself. He is dressed in a robe dipped in blood, and his name is the Word of God. Revelation 19:11-13

That is our God, or God coming back again. And I think what spoke to me today out of this verse was the essence of our everlasting God. He simply is. He breathed us all into existence (Genesis 2:7), he knit us together in our mothers’ wombs (Psalm 139:13), He died on the cross for our sins (Romans 5:8), He rose again (Matthew 28:6), He is within our midst right now through His Holy Spirit (John 14:16), and He will return again one day (Hebrews 9:28). He is. And to me that is where I rest. I rest in that truth and feel peace and the joy everyday because of that. Something so true and vital to living in a world that is so full of darkness. And as I went back into this prayer book to do some re-reading of prayers, verses, and where I had been in life over these 107 weeks, I found a lot of moments where God had been so present in my life. I found a lot of reflection on how good He has been and how many things I have to thank Him for. But, I landed on this prayer that I wrote two years ago:

“God, bring me to teach in a new place where you need me…outside my comfort zone so that my relationship may grow stronger with you, grow deeper with you.”

Goosebumps, or as they say in Hawaii, “chicken skin.” I lead into that prayer with the thought of letting go of my wants and desires and knowing that God was in control, not my will but His be done. God had taught me in that season that if He put a desire in my heart, that He would see to it that it happened. Because He is good and faithful. Well, here we are, two years later. And yes, I am teaching in a new place. Yes, I am out of my comfort zone (way out of my comfort zone!) But WOW, more than anything, my relationship with Him has grown stronger and deeper. Over the last three weeks I have spent more time with God than maybe I ever have in my life. He truly is working on my relationship with Him.

Throughout most of this month, I have taken a step back from the buzz of the world to spend more time with God. I was feeling low on energy, motivation, and overall just kind of in a lull. I decided that what I needed most was to spend more time in God’s word and so, I have been reading through the book of Proverbs. So much peace and energy has come to me in this season and what I kept hearing over and over again was to be still. That is what God is calling me to in this season. In this season, He has me, He loves me, and He is using me in ways I do not even understand. And I can rest assured in that promise because as I look back on that prayer I prayed two years ago, He was faithful to fulfill it. And I am just in awe. I am in awe of God’s goodness and faithfulness. I am in awe that I prayed something expectantly and in this season I am doing exactly what I had prayed for. God is true. God is faithful.

I look back on how I got here and I just have to say, Thank you Lord. Because that is the truth. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for our God. I wouldn’t be doing this work if it wasn’t for our God. If God hadn’t worked so deeply in my heart, I would be making six figures and traveling the world. Okay, that probably isn’t true, but a possibility. The truth is, I wouldn’t want to be there. I want to be here, in this mess of a world, in this mess of an education system. I want to be a part of making it better, no matter how small that part is. God placed me here to simply be. To love His children. To be with Him, to be still (and let me tell you, that is a hard thing for me to do!) But, I am. And every day I am reminded just how good God is. I am reminded how loved I am by Him and that every day I have a new opportunity to know Him more, love Him more, and love His people more. And you do too. Pray expectantly. Pray boldly. Read His word. Don’t take my testimony as the truth, go into His word and find His truth for yourself. I am simply just a vessel that gets to share a little bit of His light with the world.

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. Proverbs 16:9

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Love and blessings,